ExACTly Truthseeker...
So sorry this has happened to you, and what makes this abuse so bad, is that when you realize that the "mother' /Borg that taught us to "love our neighbor," has no love in themselves.
THAT is the killer. When you look in their eyes, and you see ice. Cold, hard, uncaring ice. And the bad part is, they make you feel guilty for even THINKING about being mad at them... Ambient Abuse.
Plus, you "will be a bad little boy/ girl/ witness" for talking to anyone, going to a counselor. The very thing someone abused needs... "You will "bring reproach on Jehovah."
NO, the org hs brought reproach, the predator has brought reproach... on themselves... it has nothing to do with God.
"God" is their "get out of jail free card."